puasa

Ramadhan datang lagi..syoknya..tapi i tetap sedih gak..i rasa tahun  ni just ada i and my parent je..bangcik raya atas kapal,abang maybe balik rumah mertua dia and kaktie pon sama..huhuhu

kalau ada b raya sekali kan best,boleh teman bb raya rumah kawan-kawan..hehehe

tadi abah call tanya nak balik rumah tak..i serba salah pula,ye la..this saturday and friday i ada quiz,if i balik conformlah i tak study..so  i decide tak balik la and janji this weekend i balik..nanti kita buka puasa sama-sama yeh abah and mak..

owh tadi baru lepas quiz math..MasyaALLAH susahnya..i target soalan direct jer tapi keluar beli-belit la pula...tapi nak wat camna dah buat dah pn..tapi i puas hati juga la coz i dah study so i tawakal sahaja sebab i dah betul-betul usaha..tapi i yakin and pasti soalan no 2 tu i betul 100%..hahahaah(buat sedap ati je ni)...

i rindu gila nak blogging tapi masa sangat jealous dengan i..hahaaha...

internet pn lembap gak tapi ok la...tak ada la i lalai sangt kot kalau dok on9 tapi ok gak r kalau seminggu sekali i update...so diz saturday ada quiz electric circuit and friday quiz engineering mechanic...dua-dua sangat tough n menakutkan..

tapi i akn usaha betul2..

thank to my roomate hajar athirah n hasyimah yang begitu rajin membantu i kalau i tak paham..so bilik i ni ada give and take..lagipun bantu membantu tu kan amalan mulia.

so,tahun ni i tak ada baju raya...huhuhu..

igt dulu nak dekat cuti raya,mesti i keluar shopping dengan b,tapi b dah jauh...boring la pula kalau keluar sorg2..hahaha..

i nak menabung la pula,nak gi bercuti lagi bersma teman-teman tercinta..

next destinasi=RAHSIA..hahaha

k la bubyye..(nak pi class sir Edison)

inflection point....

inflection point..i baru je belajar tadi time engineering math..wootwoot...sangatlah susah,tapi Alhamdulillah setakat ni i boleh follow lagi la and i hope i akan success la kan dalam semua subjects i ambil this semester..last monday balik rumah jap dengan cima,and mom br balik dr sarawak..of coz la semua barang dia beli untuk i..thanks mak..sayang mak..fyi,jat and cima pn dapat t-shirt,key-chain and gelang from sarawak..yeye.ni boleh la kami boria..hahahah

i sangat rindu my boyfriend..dah lama sangat tak  jumpa dia tapi dia janji diz november nak datang kulim..yeyeyey..tapi i tak harap sangat la coz dia sangatlah busy..pepe pn i miss u and luv u b..terima kasih sebab u ada bila i perlukan..

malam ni cima and i nak gi dengar ceramah'Muhamad Utusan Terakhir'..hope i boleh ambil iktibar dari ceramah yang i dengar..unit Islam kt kampus i ni makin aktif la..macam-macam program mereka buat..tahniah ye ustaz dan ahli-ahlinya...and malam jumaat nanti ada diskusi pasal natrah pula and writer dia pn akan datang..so InsyaAllah i akan pergi juga..hope sangat semua assignment i dapat disiapkan so i boleh la pergi..

macam-macam jadi kat i minggu ni..tapi i akan jadikan semua tu sebagai 1 cabaran untuk i melangkah lebih jauh dan terus berjaya..AMIN

saya minta maaf jika selama ini ada orang terasa dengan blog i..minta maaf ye...bak kata cik ain kawan i,minta maaf tu afdal...so i tak nak panjangkan cerita or besarkan cerita or wall kat mna2 i minta maaf sangat..

if I forget to tell you

If I forget to tell you just how much you mean to me, I hope that you will remember while your not here with me.
If I forget to tell you that you are my world and more, I hope that you will remember what I am waiting for.
If I forget to tell you I want you in my life, I hope that you will remember that I am always by your side.
If I forget to tell you I love you more than words, I hope that you will remember regardless of the hurt.
If I forget to tell you I am sorry for my mistakes, I hope that you will remember with every one I make.
If I forget to tell you no other can compare, I hope that you will remember the love that we both share.
If I forget to tell you I miss you everyday, I hope that you will remember your absence causes pain.
If I forget to tell you that forever is what I want, I hope you will remember that forever is what we have got. Whether I say these words to you, or wait until you are here with me, I will show you this forever, and these words will have no need. 

 

I LOVE U B

 

 

busy..busy

my life now totally so so so busy...only 1 week i started my classes and i begin to vomit all the time..hahhaha..learn new thing is totally so hard..adoii..and this is the first time dalam my life,lepas habis class i balik bilik and terus study..bukan 1 subject tapi all the subjects..bagus kan i???hahahah..perasan la pula..yes..i am changed now..i tak nak malas-malas lagi..i tak nak main-main lagi..i nak fokus untuk pointer yang baik and paling pentingi nak buat  my parent  bangga dapat anak cam i ni...so degree memang susah..totally sangat2 susah..tak macam diploma dulu so i kena usaha lebih and lebih lagi...

sekarang ni bila i enter je class i terus focus..letih memang sangat letih..berganda-ganda letih..tapi i puas kalau i paham pe lecturer cakap..kalau tak paham,mula la i cam kucing nak beranak..thanks to my roomates yang sgt supportive and rajin-rajin cam i gak..hehehehe..

latelty ni i kerap gadoh ngan b..i pun tak tau kenapa maybe sebab jauh kot dengan dia tapi everything going smooth right now...dua2 salah sebenarnya..i pun over sangat kot..sian dia ..sowi ye b..bila dah jauh mula la rindu..sumpah i rindu gila kat dia..kalau tak rindu tu memang tipu r cik rafa oitt..hehehehe..tapi i penat sikit la kan.so jarang la cakap dengan dia..tapi b pun busy yang sangat melampau...i relax je..hahaha..pepe pn I LOVE U B...

sedih

SEDIH???

adakah itu perkataan yang paling sesuai untuk i gambarkan situasi sekarang ini...

jam menunjukkan 12.21a.m hari jumaat..i tak tido lagi tunggu udin call,

and i tau dia tak akn call i,

semenjak dua menjak ni dia cam tak alert je ngan diri i,

dah la jauh,sms jarang,call pn sehari adalah dlm 5 minit...

hmmmmm...

dia ada perempuan lain ker?

tah la,kalau ada mintalah ALLAH tunjukkan kebenaran...

i cuba paham situasi dia,study and part time,

i tak minta pn dia wat part time semua tu,dia bukan tak mampu tapi i tak tau la kenapa dia nak sgt wat keje...

i sunyi gila...sunyi sangat...rindu???sumpah i rindu gila kat dia...

i tak tau nak wat apa agi...i akan tunggu sampai pkul 1,kalau dia tak call gak i tido je...

lagipun i dah letih sgt pikir semua benda ni...

i miss u

you used to call me 'buntat'

and i hate it so much,

but u keep calling me like that,

you said I was sent straight down from heaven

just for you,
You'd hold me close in your arms,

you hold my hands tightly,

I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

here with me b
b
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while,
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow,
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you

b...

p/s:plz come to kulim b..rinduuu

i

so tinggal lagi 2 hari sebelum i start my degree,

anyway i takut,yeah!1 i was freaking out right now...

even though i dah biasa dengan msi tapi sekarang ni lain,kawan-kawan pun dah tak sama and yang paling i takut i tak boleh bawa those subjects yang killing habis,

itak nak and tak akan kecewakan parent i,cukuplah i dapat result teruk time spm dulu,now i nak tebus balik semua kesalahan yang pernah i buat dulu,

i nak tengok mak senyum,i nak tengok abah ketawa sebab anak dia berjaya dalam hidup...

why i choose msi??

jawapannya senang je,i nak dekat dengan parent i...bukan bermaksud i manja or etc,tapi cukuplah i habiskan 5 tahun i jauh dari parent i tapi hasilnya sangat-sangatlah tak memuaskan...

biar i dekat dengan diorang,i boleh manja-manja selalu dengan dorang...hehehehhe

so my diploma result was good,actually for me very good even though i tak dapat dean but for my degree i will try harder and harder and no ones cants stop me,

enough to play around and i just want to focus on my study,

when i got excellent result,excellent job n lots of money then i'll be happy,

then i can buy anything that i wanted...

talked about what i want to buy...OMG!!

that alots of things yang i really wanted to buy,but as i said before,i need to work harder...

parent i bukan jenis limpahkan i dengan kemewahan,memang dorang tak ajar adik-beradik i dengan kemwahan walaupun dorg mampu,parent i nak kami berusaha dengan gigih,then u can buy anything what u want..

sometime,i am quite jealous with my friends,they can buy what they want with their parent money??/but me???no...

i tak kesah sebab all those things buat i makin bersemangat untuk kejar impian i...

like my brother,he used to be a very bad student and most people around him said that he would not be successfull in his life,but then look at him now,he was an engineer now and can buy anythings taht he wanted,i adore him so much...

so rafa don get jealous at anyone,be yourself,try achieve your dream..

InsyaALLAH..

thanks abah and mak  for those 21 years u've been loving me so much..i love u both